Is it just me or does it seem like we hear about new technology for years and years before we see it? If something is not going to be available for 5 years, please don't tell me about it now. It just means that I am going to withhold purchasing a new computer, phone, or television for the next 5 years... and how does that help the industry? Market departments across the planet should be monitoring this.
I just finished reading "Software Project Survival Guide". If you pull out all the stuff about software, it is just a great book about being prepared. It lays out how all projects fall into one of four categories: rapid, efficient, slow, and impossible.
The thing that I really found amazing or shocking is that 70% of all tasks fall under the impossible category. Very important tasks are made to appear much more trivial than they are and the project starts out doomed for failure.
This being true of software projects, I would imagine that projects or tasks of any genre don't fall too far from this statistic. It is our nature as humans to want success and try to please those around us; so we tell ourselves and people what they want to here that "it is no problem", "that is simple", or "sure, I can do it in that time frame". If we just paused for a second and thought about it, we could provide honesty and have an achievable goal. And for a change at the end of a project or task, we could have success; versus embarrassment or failure.
My new goal is to stop, think, be honest, and be prepared for all tasks.
With freedom comes choices, with choices comes responsibility, with responsibility comes anxiety... and now I know how I got here. I am sure that was not the direct route I took, but those are the parts of the trip that I remember. What's next on the map?
My skill set has been sitting on a shelf collecting dust while I am being so very busy with something that I'm not even sure what it may turn out to be (odd sentence, but read it a few times and it will make SOME sense). Time to brush off the old skills and start doing something. I am newly equipped with a new paint brush set and a whole lot of film. My options are open, I just need to start something.
I have reached a very trying time in my life; and when I hit these points where I just don't know what to do, I start asking for advice. I have learned a lot about myself from the comments and advice that people have been kind enough to give me. It has been just enough to keep me going which is exactly what I was looking for. Thank you to everyone.
One month from today, I will be 26 years of age. My oh my, how the time has flown.
Timing is everything; and time kills. Smoking, drinking, being overweight, and driving too fast may kill you; but without a doubt, time will get you. And usually, you wish that the waiting would as well.
Waiting for the right timing or wondering if you missed it already... is like bamboo under the nails. Waiting for the stars to align is not a science; it is a gamble. You win or you lose. And maybe even worse is that the inaction may cost you more than pulling the handle.
Some days, I am not even sure how I do tolerate, nor if I should be tolerating, some of the insanely wrong things that I seemingly let roll right off my back. At this moment, I am pondering what to do. I am not sure if I am doing right or wrong by trying to do the best thing. I have a vision of the greatness that could arise; but right now, I am having my doubts. Serious doubts. If things continue along this path and do not improve, it is possible that I have wasted a large amount of time, effort, and passion for nothing. Nothing that I would consider to be of high value that is.
The weight of thought, the burden of being human.
Life and all things within this universe can be made out to be complicated; however, the truth always comes around to show that it is simple. The choices and problems that we are faced with everyday are, in fact, simple. They may not be black and white, or right and wrong; but the are not complicated. It is the perception and emotions that come from the perception that create the cloud of difficultly surrounding even the smallest of tasks.
I feel like my mind is starting to wake up. I have been reading a lot lately on a variety of things from graphic design to project management to color theory to programming. Normally, I just soak it in like I was a machine, but lately the information has been going in differently; it seems to be reaching deeper and making me think harder. And I am liking it.
I cannot understand why people choose to live and work in such a fashion that they bring nothing more than pain and suffering to themselves and those around them. The concept is truly just beyond me.
It is my sincere belief that people are good; thus, I am continually in shock and disappointed by the things that I see. Despite this, I choose to continue with my belief in hope that a handful of decent people are out there; and that they will cross my path.
Arizona, my server, went down sometime in the last 24 hours due to a bad power supply. I took all four servers down for a good cleaning, inspection, and any repairs. I was able to get them all back online within 6 hours, which I think is pretty good for a one man team.
Today, just about killed me; but it was good. The good thing about being 12 years older than your sibling is that you have a car, a job, and a home; so you can have a good time. That bad thing about being 12 years older than your sibling is that you are, in fact, old.
I had a blast with my little sister, Kasey. We went to the beach - where she went body surfing for a few hours; then we went inline skating for a few hours - where kept me going; and then, much more my pace, we went to see a movie; and finally shopping at the Block. It was a full-go day.
I think it will take a few days for me to recover. It is not easy getting old; but now I understand what I used to do to my older cousins.
Huge thanks to Kasey for reminding me what fun is like; I don't have it often enough.
I got a message this morning about my sister and my house... so I called and left a message for my mother. When my mother called back, it turned out that my little sister is coming to stay at my house tonight and part of the weekend.
Talk about short notice - 8 hours.
For tomorrow.
It is nearly 9p and I'm still at work... what is wrong with me?
We had a reorganization meeting at work today. No one was let go, so I consider it a good meeting. I now have a new position that is a lot like my old position, so we shall see how that pans out.
Looks like my fix worked; it was approved by the powers that be. I just need to roll it out to a few more sites, and I will be back in business.
I think I have it mostly under control.
I created a PHP structure that had a huge security hole in it. So now I get to rush around pull all my sites using it down, figure out something new, and get them all back up. I am not looking forward to this with all the other things I have on my list.
I took a few moments out today to reflect on 9/11. It was a very sad day in American history. I wish that America acted more like it was; the memory was nearly gone weeks after; and now, I am sure hardly anyone realized what today was.
America needs to fix its culture before we go "saving the world".
Happy birthday to my favorite aunt!
It just has to cool down. The heat is getting out of control here in Southern California. It has been well over 80 with high humidity. The combo feels hotter than the middle of summer.
I am reading a book titled "the Brand Gap". It is an overview of branding as it relates to design. I find that it is very well written, and put together thus far. I am about half way through the book and loving it.
Tonight Ong and I went to look for my desired guitar. They had plenty of cool guitars, but not the exact one that I am looking for. So the search must continue.
I am enjoying my much needed day off. Weekends are just too short. It is great to have this extra day off. I need the rest, and the time.
Played Canasta tonight with my friends. I forgot how much I love playing. It is by far my favorite card game. I just love it.
Putting the pieces together to create a life - one to be enjoyed and desired. A few pieces must be removed to correct the building image. The current image is not looking like the one on the box. However, still optimistic about the result.
I have increased the number of posts that show from 7 days to 13 days. My archive list is getting so long that something needed to balance it out. And I was not about to increase the length of my posts; sadly, I just don't have the time.
Testing is not as fun as building. Being tested is not as fun as testing. So which side of the fence is really better? Maybe staying in bed comes out the winner.
It is amazing how fast time seems to fly. It is a new month again, but this time closer to the end of the year.