Spinning The Gears
Where has Merc been? Being him, I have pretty good insight to answer this question. Merc has been thinking. Thinking those painful thoughts about life, happiness, and all other things that move the human soul.
Life has a beginning and, one day, an end. Both of which seems to happen without any effort on a person's behalf. The tricky part is the middle. That short amount of time in the middle that can seemingly stretch out into being a lifetime. A lifetime, something that is in the top five of valuable items that a person ever has. There is a story in the Good Book about how items of value are to be used. Whether you believe in anything or not, one cannot argue that hiding valuable items away is not a good investment.
So now the how to deal with the burden that cannot be escaped until the burden slips away into slumber is the crushing wave of a question; and the question keeps pounding away. The same question that keeps the motivation fresh is the same question that wears away the shore. In nature there is a balance, hopefully the same balance can be found inside the mind.
This balance must be hunted down daily as it easily slips through the fingers. Merc is walking along the shore looking for something that he is not sure if he ever had or even saw; and he has a smile on his face.