Genius does what it must, talent does what it can.
-Edward Bulwer-Lytton
July 29, 2002
July 27, 2002
Good Feelings
I just have to say a major thanks to all the employees at place I just quit. They really made me feel like a good person that knew what they were doing. It is the fact that I never got that feeling from management that I quit. They are a great crew; I feel bad leaving them, and I hope they can find a way out as well.
I cannot explain how good I feel knowing that I never have to go back there and be submitted to such horrid unappreciation.
I have a bright wide-open future in front of me. I can finally feel the warmth of it. I just can't help but smile.
July 26, 2002
Last Day
Today is my last day at work... feels sad, feels good. I will miss the people, but not the place. We had a little party last night which was a blast.
July 25, 2002
Pulling It Together
Things are starting to come together. I just had to step back and let go a little. I am still gathering a new plan of attack... which is coming together nicely. Just have to keep moving forward through the tired.
July 24, 2002
Burn Out
I am just so very tired that I can barely keep m head above water. I need a serious amount of rest, but I have no time for that. At this rate, all I will be doing on my honeymoon is sleeping.
July 22, 2002
I have over 500 e-mail messages in my inbox... I will get to them all soon... heh heh.
July 19, 2002
I am pretty busy. Most the time a little too busy.
July 16, 2002
Tired
I am so very tired that I feel ill. I hate that feeling.
I had to get up early this morning and finish a logo design project that I fell asleep sketching last night. I think it turn out pretty good for being a 'quickie'. I seem to be doing a lot of quick and free projects lately... feels good to be needed.
I have only nine days left at work. I know it is not my job to worry; however, I am really hoping that they will get someone to replace me soon. I would like to start training someone. There are a million little things to know. I would hate to cram it all in a few days.
Time for a shower... then off to my 22.7 mile ride to work.
July 15, 2002
Side Work
I got offered a job through Creative Moonlighter. It is a site that I found when I first moved down here. I would have forgotten it completely if they had not sent me an e-mail over the weekend. Looks like a really good resource for getting side jobs. Might have to keep my eye on it.
July 12, 2002
Management:
Friday, July 26, 2002 will be my last day. Upon which date, I will be leaving in search of better opportunity.
I would like to thank you for the employment. In addition, I would like to thank you for the privilege of working with such a fantastic staff. I have made friendships that I am sure will last a lifetime. I have never worked in a place with such a diligent staff that was so competent and efficient despite inadequate compensation, undue stress, and frequent disapproval.
I wish you the best in your business. And I would implore you to use your staff to their fullest potential and allow them the freedom to do what they do best, while showing them much due appreciation.
Sincerely.
July 11, 2002
Return to the Storm
As if getting married was not a big enough change, I will also be going back to school after three semesters off. I am excited about going... but I had a flashback last night about when I was going to school and working. I was tired... I had no time. I am not looking forward to those things. I do, however, want my degree so very badly. And deep down, I really need to learn again... I am almost starving for knowledge.
"Education is a companion which no misfortune can depress, no crime can destroy, no enemy can alienate,no despotism can enslave. At home, a friend, abroad, an introduction, in solitude a solace and in society an ornament.It chastens vice, it guides virtue, it gives at once grace and government to genius. Without it, what is man? A splendid slave, a reasoning savage."
-Joseph Addison
July 10, 2002
Today had to be the slowest day at work ever. Seconds felt like hours. It was horrid. Only good thing that happened is that Saleen approved their 2003 calendar - which I have been working on for about a year now. I am very happy to see it finally become a project. It will most likely never be featured in my portfolio. They pretty much removed all of my design work and downgraded it to a bunch of boxes. Eh.
Pain
I swear that no one will ever know the pain it takes just to be me. I am just trying to make the best of what I have been given and the most of the future. I don't know why everything has to be so very difficult. I just want everything to be okay.
July 09, 2002
Something for Everybody
I have listened to the Sunscreen Song from Baz about four times this morning. Very moving speech.
Ong and I had my mother, father, and brother over to her house for dinner last night. It was nice. Had a really good time, minus the heat.
I am sitting here in a daze... that lovely morning daze. Most people sleep through it... I suggest getting out of bed. That feeling of deep thought that you only get every once in a long while when you stay up too late with your friends... that is the morning daze. Nice, huh? Just don't move too fast.
July 08, 2002
Breakfast of Champions
I am on a Pop Tart kick. They are honestly a great substitute for any meal... even dinner. Saturday night for dinner, I had Code Red (plus a small amount of Vodka) and a Blueberry Pop Tart. I am surely going to die young if I keep that up.
July 07, 2002
So Sorry
I am catching a lot of heat with this new design. Not because of the design, but because of my decision to drop dead or inactive sites from my friends list. I meant no harm to our friendships. I am honestly sorry to all those that I have offended and those that I have yet to offend. It is my personal belief that the web is so big and so alive that it is a disservice to visitor of my site to link to a dead site.
July 06, 2002
Armed and Dangerous
I have just loaded a roll of black and white film into my camera. It has been a long while since I have shot in black and white. I always feels more artistic when I shoot with b&w... I think that is is odd that shoot with less (no color) is considered by the general public to be more difficult than shooting in color. I think color is far more challenging. You get the joy of worrying about color and composition.
Speaking of pictures, we had Ong's dad shoot some engagement photos of us. (Note to self: Get them developed.) We took them down a Cal State Fullerton, which is seemly my favorite place to a) fall out of trees and b) shoot pictures. I think I have done it there about 4 times.
Found a new graphic design site with a lot of good interviews. Just make me long to be better.
Finally here.
I have been holding back on this design for quite some time. The reason is mainly a shortage of time. I really like it and have decided to upload it without all of the features that I wanted... just for the sake of liking my own site again. I have a few bugs to work out on the archives and will be adding a download section (maybe). Maybe not until after the wedding, I will be adding my portfolio to this site as well. My portfolio is something that has been missing from the web for too long already.
I have created a new CSS structure for this blog that I will be using on GTM and Sol's new site. I am already using it with great success on the new Antislacker design.
It has been very busy over the past few days and is not going to be letting up. We are getting a ton of stuff done for the wedding. So things are really starting to move along.
July 05, 2002
Another day, more wedding stuff. Warning: I don't care if you are five years old, start planning for your wedding now.
Yeah, I am a little proud. I love when a redesign goes from my mind to paper to the web... and does it so very smoothly.
July 03, 2002
The web gets so quiet around the holidays... I just hate it. That is when I have time... and the web is just too boring then.
July 02, 2002
Time for work.
July 01, 2002
Stayed up nearly to 2 last night. The insane thing is that we are not finished putting the invitations together. We still have about 20 more to go. Why did we not stay up and finish the last 20? Believe it or not, we bought the post office out of postage. So we get to find another post office and try to by more.
I licked a little more than 150 envelopes last night... so when you get your invitation, you can be grosses out that I have licked it myself. There is a little bit or Merc in everyone. That thought even grosses me out... and it is my spit.
Finished the wedding site last night as well. There are a few little things that need working on, but all in all, it is complete. I would love to post a link, but it is a site for the invited only. The URL will be located in your invitation. It is the internet and it is public... and I don't want just any weirdos at my wedding... just certain ones. The site will feature places to stay while you are here (ones that we get discounts at), shopping locations, local and not-so local attractions, different points of entertainment, and suggested dining. (Note to self: I need to add suggested beaches). Gift registry and profiles on the Wedding Party (for all you stalkers out there).
I am a zombie.