Mercury State

love (luv) n.

A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

Such a seemly simple thing, but I don't think I will ever understand it... not when the time is right anyway. I am sitting here looking back... thinking about how much I really loved it all.

I don't really believe that the end of anything is truely the beginning of anything. I think everything just lasts forever... even if you have to struggle, you can still remember it. Somethings stick out in my mind more than others... but somethings are just there. All the time... floating around in my skull... always sitting on the back of my tongue. Those are the important things right?

Today... today... what a day of thought and reflection. I am starting something new... all new. I am happy, sad, and horrified... and all at once. I ran out of fingers and toes listing off the things that make me happy... so I did bother with the list for sad and horrified. Those lists will just have to create themselves.

This is what I should be doing... I should have done this a long time ago, but better late than never, huh? There is quite a bit of comfort in the fear I am feeling. It is like a good kind of hurt... yeah, this is going to be painful month to month... but it is going to feel so good year to year. And maybe in a few years, I will starting over again... I hope so.

I can always use a new beginning.

Song of the moment:

When it's over
That's the time I fall in love again
And when it's over
That's the time you're in my heart again
And it never ends

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

I'm missing you
I never knew how much she'd loved me
I'm missing you
I never knew how much you meant to me
I need you and when you go go go go
I know, it never ends, never ends

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

When it's over
Can I still come over
In the middle of the night
When it's over
Is it really over
Or are you coming back this time, this time, this time

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

All the things that I used to say
All the words that got in the way
All the things that I used to know
Have gone out the window
All the things that she used to bring
All the songs she used to sing
All the favorite TV shows
Have gone out the window

Eddie is going to be here in the morning... I think. It will be good to hang out for a while. Eddie is a fun and cool guy. He makes me look like I am standing still, but hey... someone has too, right?

I am going to start working on a few new projects in the morning (which means I am not sleeping in). Project one: write a few article for eDevCafe. Project two: concept and desgn for FeistyChicken. And packing... that is right, Super Ong. I will be packing too. I cannot let you be right all the time.

Posted by Merc at 9:30 PM