sMax is in town today. It has been a long while... I miss having sMax around. Decent and intelligent friends are hard to find.
We (sMax, Wiz, and I) came up with an awesome new bisiness idea. sMax was the main brain behind the idea. I must say that I would have never thought of the idea without him... pure genius. sMax is going to be doing some real intense homework on how to get things going. Once we see how possible our idea is... it is all out. I really hope things pan out.
I am supposed to be working on another new site, ActionDevelopers.com. However without ftp access... it is really difficult to do anything at all. So this project has a LARGE hold on it.
TRSnet is on hold until we get a server setup. There are a few issues with the business deal on this one that need to be worked out as well. This project may get capped.
MercurFrog.com is done. It will be staying exactly how it is for at least the next 6 months. I have worked out all the bugs. I am happy with it at this point. Err... okay, I have to add archives to it, but that is it.. I swear.
SeveredLogic.com is up and working. Wiz put in some serious overtime and got it done early. He has a really kick-butt logo... I wonder who designed it. Heh heh.
Solbeam.com. Now that I have my site out of the way, sb.com is going to get all that it has been needing. All major thing are out of the way; just have to clean up and add a few sections. I just have to try my hardest to not complicate things. In creating my site, I have learned a few new tricks... but I have to hold back. Cutting-edge coding does not work well on every computer in the WORLD. Keep it tame.
Ong's section is going to have a bit of remodeling in the near future. It is not very Mac freindly... and that has to change.
IsaacPetro.com has joined the FactionStudios collection. This calls for a relocation and redesign on IP's section. Should be fun.
FarmerJoe, JennaBlue and Manda are going to be joining the mf.com-family sometime in the next few weeks. Possibly, Moose and Jax as well. If I can get a hold of Ang, I am going to try to bring back Opposite Socks as well.
DZ's section is going to be expanding and go through a SLIGHT redesign. The section that will be expanding is going to a an absolute kick to design. I am lookign forward to it very much. With SeveredLogic up and running... maybe Wiz will be able to help on this project.
PROJECT X: Experiment In Swanky. The team is coming together. I am going to try to get ClarkKent from CC to jump on board with this project. I think it is right up his alley.
QuickDilpoma.com needs a new plan. I think it needs a larger budget for advertising. It has fallen victim to the fall of e-commerce. Kinda sad really. I think I can still pull some numbers out of this site. Maybe has Wiz take it over or Whacked Internet.
AntiSlacker.com: The site that will never get finished. Funny, but not. I have a few ideas to do with it. Nothing seems to stick. A site about personal achievement that seems to sit there like a bump on a log. It is enough to make me ill at times... other times I just have to laugh.
I also have a few new clients in the works. A few websites... and video or two... and a set to design. All these possible projects look like a whole lot of fun. I am really looking forward to getting a lot more work done.
Among all the work I have set out here, I plan on learning more JavaScript and DHTML. E-commerce site are not where the money is at the moment... plus I have the need for the money just not the love for it. I reeally have the love for the technology... I just like to see and create 'neato stuff'. It is really to the point where NOTHING at all is impossible on the web. Scary beautiful is all I can say. I just want to create and create with no end... feels like I am an artist again. Lately, I am code artist, but an artist none the less... and I dig that.
I am in a real dilema with what to do with my life. I just cannot seem to make up my mind. I really do need to continue on with school... but will I? I really feel like I am going to lose a lot by going back to school. On the other hand, I know I am going to miss out o a lot by not going back to school. I have my AA, but it is worthless. I don't even have an ounce of pride in it. I feel as though all the school that I have gone through is in total vain. Nothing I have done in school has helped me do what I am doing now. Is teh next level of eduction going to be the same? I need to learn. I am starving to learn. I don't feel like I can find enough places to learn. I need classes in web development, but they are not out there. It is a science that is too new. I need a BS, in web development. If I could get that, I would go back to school in second. Drop everything and go. But to get my BA/BS, I have to stop developing websites, I have to stop working, I have to give up so VERY much in order to go ahead in a 'related' major. How weak is that? How bleak does that look? No one wants me without a degree, but by the time I get the darn thing, i am going to so out-of-the-loop on what they should hire me to do now.
I regret that I am 22 with nothing. I know that is not the total truth; however, it is how I feel. I have bills. I have an AA. I have nothing — nothing that I want. I am reaching, but I just cannot seem to reach far enough from where I am. I would love to jump out there and chance falling on my face. I would love to chance failure, but I cannot. Failure is not an option. I have nothing to fall back on. If I cannot pay my bills, thee is not a soul on this planet to help me out. That is scary. I have no home to go home to. Where I am is the safest thing... and when I leave there is no coming back. I have to prepared for that. I am in heart, but not in mind. Logic and desire are having a serious struggle.
The short term future is a fun ride and a chance to pay off my bills, but beyond that I am horrified.
Push on.